and she's not going to be able to respond to sora's encouragement of holding out for hope because of the mountain of "what ifs". "what ifs" are scary and even if she has come this far—to hold onto something like this on a "what if"? she can't. ]
Do you think that the way that things are, is how things are supposed to have been? [ she'll start off slowly. ] Isn't that the thinking with things like this? The constants that remain at the end are the results that always should have been? Also, you know, if what you're saying about hearts has any merit.
[ and in that way, isn't it comforting to know that some of what they've done was going to be set in stone that way? not the deaths, but, at least, the connections that they've made. ]
It's totally possible. You can't change destiny that's already been written, but you can get there in a ton of different ways, I think. Maybe that was the point all along. We could never get to the right end, so we started over and found new paths each time while redoing certain things the same way.
I wonder if this means that we're the prime timeline. [ would...sora understand that reference? it lends into being more science based than magic based but..? either way, she'll roll with it especially since, well, the next bit should be understood regardless. ] Though I can't help but want to know the fate of our failed attempts. What did they go through—what were they feeling.
[ especially, since, well...izumo's entire time here has been fucking terrible all things considered. ]
...like the correct one? [he doesn't quite get it, but he gets it Enough.] It's possible. I think a lot about what we were told early on. "Time has already been written. There's nothing you can do, is there? Except try, try again. But you'll never make it. Not yet."
We must have tried so many different times, but if time was already written then we just didn't follow the right time, maybe. I think...I want to know about our failed attempts, too. What was different and what was the same.
[ izumo hums softly at the words again. she...honestly forgot them but hearing them again makes it feel suddenly so much more real, especially now. ]
Yeah, the correct one. [ she trails off for a moment. ] I'm kind of curious to know if there was a version of myself that was even happier than I am now. The idea of that version of myself existing and then giving everything up—
[ granted izumo's "happiness" in itself is a bit on the fragile side but digressing. ]
If I could meet her and listen to her reasoning then maybe I could accept a few things.
[he can understand that enough. but he doesn't quite reply as he lets himself think it over, quietly contemplating before he nods slowly.]
I don't know if it's really about happiness versus doing what's right. I feel like even you would be someone who could give up happiness in order to try again for something better for all of us. [...but.] Do you think maybe it was possible there was a you that was happier? I guess what I mean is...are you happy now?
I would. [ there's no hesitation in when she replies, though her voice shrinks. ] If you want to count those adventures we went on, then I've already given up on a happiness that I can remember for the sake of everyone else here.
[ as her general state... is she happy? no, definitely not. her memory are filled with holes and the number of things that tear into her outweigh the things that could lift her up. yet, even though that all is mounting against her— ]
...and I'm the happiest when I'm with Alphinaud. However, I know that if certain things didn't happen, things wouldn't seem as painful as they are.
I suppose you could count those adventures. I wonder what would've happened to any of us if we decided not to try to leave at all. [would they have just lived out in those memories? would they have had a different path after that? it's nothing he has an answer for, and he nods when she replies.]
I think even when people are in pain, they can find things to be happy about. They aren't exactly two forces that can't be together. [...] What're you thinking of specifically?
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and she's not going to be able to respond to sora's encouragement of holding out for hope because of the mountain of "what ifs". "what ifs" are scary and even if she has come this far—to hold onto something like this on a "what if"? she can't. ]
Do you think that the way that things are, is how things are supposed to have been? [ she'll start off slowly. ] Isn't that the thinking with things like this? The constants that remain at the end are the results that always should have been? Also, you know, if what you're saying about hearts has any merit.
[ and in that way, isn't it comforting to know that some of what they've done was going to be set in stone that way? not the deaths, but, at least, the connections that they've made. ]
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I wonder if this means that we're the prime timeline. [ would...sora understand that reference? it lends into being more science based than magic based but..? either way, she'll roll with it especially since, well, the next bit should be understood regardless. ] Though I can't help but want to know the fate of our failed attempts. What did they go through—what were they feeling.
[ especially, since, well...izumo's entire time here has been fucking terrible all things considered. ]
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We must have tried so many different times, but if time was already written then we just didn't follow the right time, maybe. I think...I want to know about our failed attempts, too. What was different and what was the same.
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Yeah, the correct one. [ she trails off for a moment. ] I'm kind of curious to know if there was a version of myself that was even happier than I am now. The idea of that version of myself existing and then giving everything up—
[ granted izumo's "happiness" in itself is a bit on the fragile side but digressing. ]
If I could meet her and listen to her reasoning then maybe I could accept a few things.
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I don't know if it's really about happiness versus doing what's right. I feel like even you would be someone who could give up happiness in order to try again for something better for all of us. [...but.] Do you think maybe it was possible there was a you that was happier? I guess what I mean is...are you happy now?
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[ as her general state... is she happy? no, definitely not. her memory are filled with holes and the number of things that tear into her outweigh the things that could lift her up. yet, even though that all is mounting against her— ]
...and I'm the happiest when I'm with Alphinaud. However, I know that if certain things didn't happen, things wouldn't seem as painful as they are.
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I think even when people are in pain, they can find things to be happy about. They aren't exactly two forces that can't be together. [...] What're you thinking of specifically?