Okay, well, telling me not to worry isn't helping me be less worried! [the anxiety doesn't really surprise him, and she'll find that his own mood is swinging between worried and a little...disappointed? it's probably fine, sometimes you are a child and get kind of bummed people still don't trust you with adult problems.]
[...oh. see the problem with getting really close to someone and knowing their secrets is that when they forget them and you don't, it's the equivalent of a suckerpunch. maybe it's wrong for him to feel so intensely about it, but it's almost a sharp twinge of equal parts horror and hurt as he stops moving to stare at her.
he doesn't say anything for a moment because he's having trouble processing forgetting such an integral part of herself. it's a sudden kind of panic, too, as if he's just now really understanding the things people can lose.
but in the end, he gives her a half-grin meant to convey something like a joke.]
[ she actually flinches at the suckerpunch of emotion. her eyes stay closed, and she swallows hard. ]
H-hah. Yeah, right? Super weird. [ there's a lot going on in her - reeling a bit from the strength of his emotions, upset from not being able to remember, to grasp the idea. and under that, a simmering rage, a fury like an active volcano waiting to blow - how dare they take this from her. it's a dangerous sort of anger. ]
[...that's terrifying. this would be the part he tries to grab for her hand, do something to help her calm down but they can't this week and...it's frustrating.
but the least he can do is help and obey her wishes to back up out of her emotional bubble, even if there's some regret to doing so.]
...it's okay. We're going to get things back. [they have to.] You should ask Wolf about what they found out. About the disturbance. See if they tell you.
There's always a third option. [ she says, mussing her hand through her hair. like it's something she's heard a million times before. ] What, do you mean the fact that the Realm is being chewed on by a big being of some kind?
Oh good, you already know. [they're close enough to the shore that he finally just sits down in the sand, letting the water lap against his shoes.] Swan told me yesterday. They don't know what it is, just that it's responsible for all of our memories draining because it's eating them.
[ she kicks the waves, and then makes her way over to the sand to sit just outside of his emotion bubble. i can't believe the mods made us social distance. ]
That's what Wolf said this morning, yeah. [ sigh. ] The Realm is leading us all over to these places because they're disrupted memories that the being is eating, apparently.
They also refused to give me a straight answer on what happens to people who get removed, which is annoying.
Yeah, Swan told me that, too. I mean about these places being memories that the disturbance hit. It's why they keep changing. Maybe I'll ask Swan about the people who're removed. They can't just be gone forever.
[...] Found out why Kano was so difficult on Saturday by the way.
I don't know what a liche is, but if it sounds familiar and we know this place feeds off of it, it's possible.
[he nods.] Mob told me. He said someone used one of those rocks on Kano before the trial to try and make him nicer, but Kano didn't know. So he was scared of what was happening and kind of reacted...like that.
[ I don't know what a lich is actually makes lup laugh. like a little snort laugh that she can't hide.
she sobers, though. ]
... Oh. Do you think it was the killer doing it to frame him? [ she sounds not very sure of that, though. because she can think of like two people who would do it thinking they were doing him a favor. ]
Yeah. That was my, uh. Second thought. Which like - I'm gonna be real honest with you, Sora, that girl is going to fuck some stuff up for us if she keeps... not paying attention.
I don't know if you've ever been mind controlled or charmed? But it's not fun. Especially for shifty kids like Kano.
[...well. he can't exactly disagree is the thing.]
I haven't. But Riku...and Terra...[she's probably too far to feel that flare of worry and regret.] If they don't understand what it is, of course they're gonna fight it. Kano doesn't like people expecting him to do things certain ways. That was going to be a mess from the start.
[his feelings about hikaru are also a little complicated.] She voted for herself last time and got a vote transferred to Yona. And now possibly this. I know that she's trying to do the right thing, and I know this is probably really hard on her, but...I dunno.
I want to help people. But I don't know if she wants the kind of help I want to give her. [there are a lot of times he does agree with what hikaru thinks, but then it goes off the rails in terms of actions.]
I know. [he was also a kid who was stupidly idealistic. and still is? but he doesn't reflect on that for long.] There are others here who seem to be looking after her. So...I hope they can help her going forward.
[he seems thoughtful for a moment, but then lup gets his attention again.] But sure. Tell me about it.
[ she would argue the stupid part but he doesn't bring it up, so! she just splashes her feet in the water. ]
It makes someone affected by great cowardice - I didn't come up with the phrasing, don't at me - for twenty four hours. If someone kills me in the next two weeks, I'm using it on them before I go down. Keep an eye out for someone who seems like they're way more afraid than usual on that Friday.
...cowardice. [the way he says it implies the wording sure is stupid, but he nods firmly.] You can't really hide from something like that. So that's a really good strategy. I wish they lasted longer than two weeks, but maybe we'll get something else two weeks from now.
I've been thinking of keeping mine on me, too. It makes somebody unable to sleep until Monday of the next week whenever I use it.
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I'll be sure to tell him that. [screw this, he's actively swimming to catch up with her.] Where are you even going right now?
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no she stops, finally. ]
Away! Out of your bubble.
Don't - get all worried. It's fine. I'm fine. [ but once he's in the vicinity again she's just unease, anxiety and she knows it. ]
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It's just - memory stuff. [ she relents. ] Taako and I had a feelings jam earlier and it sucked. There's nothing I can do about it.
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Does he remember what you forgot?
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He said I was gone for a really long time. That I died? But uh. Nothing. Just static. Sounds fake.
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he doesn't say anything for a moment because he's having trouble processing forgetting such an integral part of herself. it's a sudden kind of panic, too, as if he's just now really understanding the things people can lose.
but in the end, he gives her a half-grin meant to convey something like a joke.]
...guess that would be kind of weird, huh?
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H-hah. Yeah, right? Super weird. [ there's a lot going on in her - reeling a bit from the strength of his emotions, upset from not being able to remember, to grasp the idea. and under that, a simmering rage, a fury like an active volcano waiting to blow - how dare they take this from her. it's a dangerous sort of anger. ]
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but the least he can do is help and obey her wishes to back up out of her emotional bubble, even if there's some regret to doing so.]
...it's okay. We're going to get things back. [they have to.] You should ask Wolf about what they found out. About the disturbance. See if they tell you.
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There's always a third option. [ she says, mussing her hand through her hair. like it's something she's heard a million times before. ] What, do you mean the fact that the Realm is being chewed on by a big being of some kind?
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That's what Wolf said this morning, yeah. [ sigh. ] The Realm is leading us all over to these places because they're disrupted memories that the being is eating, apparently.
They also refused to give me a straight answer on what happens to people who get removed, which is annoying.
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Yeah, Swan told me that, too. I mean about these places being memories that the disturbance hit. It's why they keep changing. Maybe I'll ask Swan about the people who're removed. They can't just be gone forever.
[...] Found out why Kano was so difficult on Saturday by the way.
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[ but she does glance over at him at that. ] Did you?
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[he nods.] Mob told me. He said someone used one of those rocks on Kano before the trial to try and make him nicer, but Kano didn't know. So he was scared of what was happening and kind of reacted...like that.
[angry. scared. avoidant.]
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she sobers, though. ]
... Oh. Do you think it was the killer doing it to frame him? [ she sounds not very sure of that, though. because she can think of like two people who would do it thinking they were doing him a favor. ]
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but also he just. sighs tiredly.]
No. If I really had to guess, I think it might've been Hikaru.
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Yeah. That was my, uh. Second thought. Which like - I'm gonna be real honest with you, Sora, that girl is going to fuck some stuff up for us if she keeps... not paying attention.
I don't know if you've ever been mind controlled or charmed? But it's not fun. Especially for shifty kids like Kano.
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I haven't. But Riku...and Terra...[she's probably too far to feel that flare of worry and regret.] If they don't understand what it is, of course they're gonna fight it. Kano doesn't like people expecting him to do things certain ways. That was going to be a mess from the start.
[his feelings about hikaru are also a little complicated.] She voted for herself last time and got a vote transferred to Yona. And now possibly this. I know that she's trying to do the right thing, and I know this is probably really hard on her, but...I dunno.
I want to help people. But I don't know if she wants the kind of help I want to give her. [there are a lot of times he does agree with what hikaru thinks, but then it goes off the rails in terms of actions.]
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[ she waves a hand. ] She's a kid and she's stupidly idealistic. It's not something you can fix, it just comes with experience, you know?
[ ... ] Hey, actually, let me tell you what my stone does so you know. I have a plan for it.
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[he seems thoughtful for a moment, but then lup gets his attention again.] But sure. Tell me about it.
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It makes someone affected by great cowardice - I didn't come up with the phrasing, don't at me - for twenty four hours. If someone kills me in the next two weeks, I'm using it on them before I go down. Keep an eye out for someone who seems like they're way more afraid than usual on that Friday.
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I've been thinking of keeping mine on me, too. It makes somebody unable to sleep until Monday of the next week whenever I use it.
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Either way, I'm not letting it go to waste. If I'm alive in two weeks I'm using it on whoever pisses me off the most.
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Don't be petty. That might get somebody innocent killed. [lup?]
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