[ It pays to have light imagery and motifs sometimes. ]
One of the best parts of humanity, of the living, is how they fight for that light. Part of the fight is hanging onto that light. Part of that fight is lighting the path for others to walk towards it.
People struggle, but that means they haven't given up.
[he seems to remember something then, if the look on his face is any indication.]
Pain is being human. People grow from pain, and people become stronger. And as they grow stronger, the more light they can let into their hearts.
...but I do worry today may have been too painful for some people. And that they may give up soon. Even if we have a path of light for them, what if they decide not to walk it?
[ She closes her eyes, as if thinking or remembering something, too. ]
We cannot make people walk where they do not wish to go. Everyone is allowed a choice, and some may be afraid. If they are afraid and need guidance, we can help, but if they decide to turn their backs and walk away from it...
You can decide if it is worth it to try to get them to turn around, and if they won't turn around anymore after everything, we accept it, as sad as it may be.
But isn't it always worth trying to get them to turn around? To try and guide them back to where they belong? [people get lost, but it's the job of others to help them find their way. that's his job, actually.]
[oh...then she asks a hard question and he frowns very suddenly. hm. don't like that.]
...I don't know. With what happened and how Kano was? I think it could have been possible. But not with the amount of time we had. We needed more time to understand where he was coming from and what he was feeling in order to help him figure out his path.
People say that it was fair for him to fight back since neither of you were guilty, but Kano still made the choice to fight unfairly. That part isn't okay no matter what the circumstances were.
[ Her smile is gentle, kind. It's an answer that doesn't surprise her. ]
I didn't think it was unfair of him. I can't fault him for wanting to live.
[ It's easier for her to say that because it was her and not anyone else. ]
He told me he would turn against the whole world if it meant saving his own: his family. I don't think his wish for his family to be happy and safe is wrong either.
It could be he's been like that for most of his life. The way he spoke with me, with Shigeo during the trial, it seemed as if he thought it was him against the rest of us.
[ Something flickers in her expression, as she remembers the words that he told her that no one else could hear, and she smooths her expression back over to something calm and neutral. ]
He tried to keep himself separate. I think he's been very hurt by the world.
...I think so, too. [he frowns then.] When we spoke, he told me that he knew why he acted the way he did but that it wasn't always this way. [basically.] Like he was trying to feel something real.
Maybe he just separated himself too far to figure out how to come back.
...yeah, I can guess. And it was still good of you to listen anyway. [even if she couldn't honor the request, he thinks it's something she would have if she could anyway.]
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
Just another reason we can't let things stop us. If it is learning by example, then we focus on the better. Even if it's hard sometimes.
no subject
She nods, smiling. She's fond. ]
It's because it's hard that makes being better and pushing through it all shine that much more. Light can only shine brighter after darkness.
no subject
Yeah. There's always a light that never goes out. You just have to hold onto it and shine it for other people, too.
no subject
One of the best parts of humanity, of the living, is how they fight for that light. Part of the fight is hanging onto that light. Part of that fight is lighting the path for others to walk towards it.
People struggle, but that means they haven't given up.
no subject
Pain is being human. People grow from pain, and people become stronger. And as they grow stronger, the more light they can let into their hearts.
...but I do worry today may have been too painful for some people. And that they may give up soon. Even if we have a path of light for them, what if they decide not to walk it?
no subject
We cannot make people walk where they do not wish to go. Everyone is allowed a choice, and some may be afraid. If they are afraid and need guidance, we can help, but if they decide to turn their backs and walk away from it...
You can decide if it is worth it to try to get them to turn around, and if they won't turn around anymore after everything, we accept it, as sad as it may be.
no subject
no subject
[ She smiles at Sora, and it's not exactly sad, but it is muted in its usual brightness and warmth. ]
Sometimes, people can't be brought back.
[ Sometimes, people can't be saved. ]
no subject
but then again, there are people he's witnessed who couldn't because they wouldn't budge on their beliefs.]
What do you think for the people here then? Are all of them people we can save if we have to try?
no subject
If I can save them, I will try. I don't want to give up on saving people who can be saved, Sora.
[ The look in her eyes becomes a bit faraway, a little distant. ]
But sometimes, saving someone can also mean hurting someone. [ ... ] Do you think Kano could have been saved, if I waited like he asked?
no subject
...I don't know. With what happened and how Kano was? I think it could have been possible. But not with the amount of time we had. We needed more time to understand where he was coming from and what he was feeling in order to help him figure out his path.
People say that it was fair for him to fight back since neither of you were guilty, but Kano still made the choice to fight unfairly. That part isn't okay no matter what the circumstances were.
no subject
I didn't think it was unfair of him. I can't fault him for wanting to live.
[ It's easier for her to say that because it was her and not anyone else. ]
He told me he would turn against the whole world if it meant saving his own: his family. I don't think his wish for his family to be happy and safe is wrong either.
no subject
[this is very hypocritical coming from him but that's okay.]
no subject
[ Something flickers in her expression, as she remembers the words that he told her that no one else could hear, and she smooths her expression back over to something calm and neutral. ]
He tried to keep himself separate. I think he's been very hurt by the world.
no subject
Maybe he just separated himself too far to figure out how to come back.
no subject
[ Kano makes her sad for more than just that she had to execute him (and fail in that). ]
I don't think Kano would let us know even if we could ask him now.
no subject
[...] What did he say to you anyway? [he also understands if she can't tell him, but it doesn't hurt to ask.]
no subject
[ ... ]
It was not a request I could grant him, but you can guess what it was from what immediately happened afterwards.
no subject
I don't think he'll forget that.
no subject
[ If anything, she thinks it's likely that Kano dislikes or at least resents her. It would make sense, and she'd accept it, if so.
It's fine. ]
May he rest in peace.
[ She closes her eyes for a small prayer. ]
no subject
...wanna stay for a little longer? Or do you wanna start heading back?
no subject
[ She still has some thinking to do. ]
no subject
[he'll wave and turn away then. don't stay too long, ruler.]