I dunno. What would you do if somebody who you thought was just a video game character showed up after a year of isolation, asked why you were using your own name and pointed a gun at you because they were told to save you?
Okay, like, I tried. Or at least I fought him and I won. And all he said to me was "I guess my powers aren't needed yet" before he disappeared. The night sky and that city disappeared, and the Final World reappeared again.
I've been trying to make sense of it since I got here, but I've got nothing.
I've thought about it, but the thing is that if Yozora, or whoever he really is, is supposed to be doing something to save "Sora", then what if I mess everything up by wishing myself back? You can't control destiny that way, so if there's something else that's supposed to happen...I don't know if it's wise to meddle with it.
[this would literally not even be a conversation if it were anybody else but himself, considering he revived seven of his friends.]
I don't know yet. I...[he's about to say, "I have to listen to what my heart says" or something equivalent to that, but he's not sure how well that'd go over right then and there even if it's what he believes. so he pauses.] I don't know. There's a lot of things I'm not sure of right now, but I want to focus on making sure we get through the next couple of days before I start thinking about anything else.
[ she can't criticize that. especially since she's only opened up to talking about the wish at all so recently. but she always gets anxious before doing something big. before an attack or before a rescue. ]
I just... Don't want to lose you, either.
[ too bad it's hard to write that off as a fear rooted in just tomorrow, with what they've been talking about. ]
Exactly. [it's been time, and he thinks he understands her mindset a little better, at least. he's still more optimistic than not, but he's learned to be a little more diplomatic and pragmatic in his time here, too. it's why he doesn't reply right away while he formulates an appropriate response.]
...it's funny. I don't think anyone will come after me now. And even if they did, I'd just have to fight back. I'm not going anywhere.
["for now." he's well-aware that they only have a few more weeks and...then what?
...he's been avoiding thinking about it, so who knows!]
[ ... it really isn't tonight that she's worried about. a few more weeks and then - no matter who gets a wish and no matter how they use it, she doesn't think they'll see each other again. the best she can hope for is that his friends rescue him like he said they will. the rest of his world seems impossible, so, sure. why not.
but even that doesn't mean they'll see each other again. that's why it's better to keep skirting the line like this than to waste either of their time. ]
Yeah. People like you too much. So you're probably safe.
Yeah. [he. literally has no idea she's thinking any of this, but...] ...Rabbit and I talked a little while ago about visiting other worlds and stuff when this is over. Since people would want to see each other again and everything. I guess I've been thinking about that, too.
[it's the reason he wants to do things "the right way." for a "maybe someday."]
...I have to believe that maybe someday, after everything, I'll be able to see you and Lup and some of the others again. So I guess if I had to pick a wish, it'd be a guarantee that that could happen. Even if the someday isn't right away.
[ you know, it never really occurred to clementine to just. ask rabbit if that was possible. probably because she still doesn't know how to talk to rabbit properly.
she's glad sora has some kind of wish of his own. and that it's one she likes. ]
[i'm crying because he asked rabbit like. in public. but it's fine, they're fine. it's something to consider at least.]
If it's impossible to be together, then all you can do is wait. [it's kind of mumbled to himself, like he's repeating something he's said to someone else before.] I...don't mind waiting, you know? Everything I've waited for has always been worth it.
[it's a philosophy he thinks of when it comes to his friends, and it'll be the same for new friends, too. it'll be the same for clementine because for some inexplainable reason, the idea of leaving her behind kind of hurts in a similar way leaving behind riku and kairi does.]
Yeah, exactly. A little bit of hope to hold onto while things are still working themselves out. I think we could all use something like that.
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[ gestures at his? death? ]
There have to be things you could use it on for yourself.
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[pointblank. but...]
...I don't know if it's safe to use for myself anymore. I'm still trying to understand what happened with Yozora.
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[ can't even enjoy the sentiment knowing it leads to an offer like that. ]
Yeah? I guess it's not exactly clear-cut...?
[ apparently not just because she doesn't understand fucking anything about his world or magic or magic in his world. ]
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[ not helpful? ]
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I've been trying to make sense of it since I got here, but I've got nothing.
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But... Couldn't you just wish to be alive again and deal with the rest later?
[ because clementine, for one, would really like for sora to be alive! ]
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[this would literally not even be a conversation if it were anybody else but himself, considering he revived seven of his friends.]
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... So, what? You're just going to go back to waiting for something to change?
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I don't know yet. I...[he's about to say, "I have to listen to what my heart says" or something equivalent to that, but he's not sure how well that'd go over right then and there even if it's what he believes. so he pauses.] I don't know. There's a lot of things I'm not sure of right now, but I want to focus on making sure we get through the next couple of days before I start thinking about anything else.
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[ she can't criticize that. especially since she's only opened up to talking about the wish at all so recently. but she always gets anxious before doing something big. before an attack or before a rescue. ]
I just... Don't want to lose you, either.
[ too bad it's hard to write that off as a fear rooted in just tomorrow, with what they've been talking about. ]
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...it's funny. I don't think anyone will come after me now. And even if they did, I'd just have to fight back. I'm not going anywhere.
["for now." he's well-aware that they only have a few more weeks and...then what?
...he's been avoiding thinking about it, so who knows!]
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but even that doesn't mean they'll see each other again. that's why it's better to keep skirting the line like this than to waste either of their time. ]
Yeah. People like you too much. So you're probably safe.
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[it's the reason he wants to do things "the right way." for a "maybe someday."]
...I have to believe that maybe someday, after everything, I'll be able to see you and Lup and some of the others again. So I guess if I had to pick a wish, it'd be a guarantee that that could happen. Even if the someday isn't right away.
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she's glad sora has some kind of wish of his own. and that it's one she likes. ]
... That's a good one.
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If it's impossible to be together, then all you can do is wait. [it's kind of mumbled to himself, like he's repeating something he's said to someone else before.] I...don't mind waiting, you know? Everything I've waited for has always been worth it.
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she. doesn't seem to know how to respond to that, exactly. but it makes her happy. ]
Mm. Waiting's not so bad. It's like something to look forward to.
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Yeah, exactly. A little bit of hope to hold onto while things are still working themselves out. I think we could all use something like that.
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Don't take too long.
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...I'll try not to. [he sort of says it without thinking about it, but it's just as sincere as ever.] Just make sure you come back tonight.
["don't die out there" goes unsaid.]