[ stop assigning me kin. anyway, kairi's listening and looking at both of them, still kicking her legs. it takes her a second to speak up; ]
... Ever since we first left the islands, there's a lot of things we haven't gotten to say.
[ she thinks so, at least, even though she's tried to make it clear as much as she could. still, it became obvious that there's always something more to say. first when riku died (here, and it feels a little crazy that they're back in like nothing happened), and then when sora... again. ]
I know I'm not as strong as the two of you. [ she says it like it's a matter of fact, because she's not yet, and maybe never, but she wants to at least reach their ballpark. hence, aqua. but that's later. for now-- ] But... I want to be with you two, no matter what. Our fates keep being messed with, but I know that's what it's supposed to be. The three of us, together. That's all.
[Absolutely he opens his mouth, but then shuts it because Kairi isn’t finished talking. FIRST OF ALL.]
You’re not that far behind, Kairi. [Since he thinks if he says anything about her being strong, or strong in her own way, she will think it’s patronizing. Platitudes.] It’s good we have your help.
[Please, your self esteem!!!]
Kairi’s right. We’re meant to be together. I guess… trying so hard to be together helps us realize how important it is to be together at all. I wish we didn’t have to struggle for it, but… because we do, I appreciate it more. Like now.
He's right. We wouldn't have been able to get this far without you. [you ever think about how sora would've probably just ignored riku entirely in kh2 if kairi didn't tell him to stop being an idiot. anyway, your self esteem!!!] You're catching up...you might even get stronger than both of us.
[mostly because with aqua training her it is a very big possibility. but...the three of them together. it is what it's supposed to be, and he also can appreciate their time together because they've fought so hard for it. it's why he thinks about it again.]
You guys are too important to me to just give up. Waiting isn't always the answer, and if it's possible to be together, then that's how it should be. [kairi might find that familiar.] Our friend asked the Ea what they lived for and what gave their life meaning, and the answer was nothing. There was no meaning for them. I just couldn't understand that...but when I think of that question, I know the answer is both of you.
[words are still hard in this instance, but he'll just say what makes the most sense, really.]
If I can't be together with you guys, I don't think I want to be with anybody else at all. [because he gave up everything just to make sure they'd be safe. because his whole journey started just to find kairi again. because he continued his journey to bring riku home. because they are his strength and he knows he's better with them than he ever would be without them.
so. he only hopes they understand that, even if he doesn't verbalize it.]
[ both of them... her self-esteem yes but also boys are stupid and say these things and then get hit by a car for her, so she is taking it with a grain of salt. not to mention-- ]
I don't want to be stronger than you two. That's not why I'm doing this. [ she's never been competing the way they have, so they entirely missed the point that she wants to be strong enough to be able to protect them in turn and not have them feel the need to get hurt for her sake. that's really all she cares about. ] It's because it's the same for me. I don't want to be with anyone else.
[ she kicks her legs again, not looking at either of them. words are hard indeed. ]
When we were kids... Everyone always acted like I'd have to choose between both of you. And sometimes... I worried about that too. [ she doesn't say why, but she thinks of those days before the island fell, how she'd felt riku change and pull away. sometimes she worried the distance was still there in a way it wasn't with her and sora, or with sora and riku. because it's sora, and sora's easy. but losing riku a week ago... she thinks it solidified something inside herself she hadn't realized needed solidity. she looks up at the roof of the truck ] I didn't want that. I've never wanted that.
[ she slips off the bed, restless, turning to face both of them with her hands on her hips ]
So... forget about hurt, or struggling, or whoever else for now. None of that was right, but this is. [ she grabs both of their hands. the non-stabby one for riku, you loser. ] Right?
[This time, it wasn’t him, but he said the exact same thing before, and so he will simply join Sora in feeling like a scolded child.
They really need to learn how to talk to girls. Their girl. He looks everywhere else except at her. Haha… And then sneaks a very quick glance at Sora.
It’s when she gets up that he finally can’t help but to look at her. He wants to say there wasn’t any choosing because clearly Sora was the appropriate goofball, but then he doesn’t want it to seem like he is purposefully ostracizing himself.]
Um…
[TRULY ONLY SAYS UM even though he lets her take his hand. He doesn’t feel embarrassed, or weird, or ashamed. It feels… normal.]
[it's a very near thing that he just says "huh?" because he's a moron and truly did not think much about the whole choosing thing. except he thinks about riku being a jackass when they were kids and throwing a paopu at him, teasing him about wanting to share one with kairi. and then he thinks about a few other things, but he doesn't get to really think too much before kairi's grabbing his hand and riku's and stands in front of both of them.
um. hm. um is right, and he glances at riku in return before he just...sort of lets out a slight laugh.]
...the three of us. [HE WILL TEMPORARILY TAKE CONTROL OF THE BRAINCELL, HE GUESSES?] None of us should have to choose when I think...I feel the same way about both of you.
[congratulations on an iota of foresight, sora. and because riku's a fucking fool, he'll complete the chain? and grab his other hand but like very gently because there's a stab still that they really should fix.]
This is right. [...truly no idea where to go from there, but at least they got this far.]
[ well! this is an improvement to how sora reacted to her sharing the paopu with him, so she'll take it, smiling gently at him. but riku's the one she was more unsure about, the one's she still a little unsure about despite his "right" and that he's letting them hold his hands, so. she rocks on her heels again, looking at him ]
It's okay if it's not the same for you. [ a pause, and, because she knows it's TWO idiots, and maybe riku's in the same corner of stupidity as sora last year on this one: ] Or if you haven't thought about it before. But I wanted you to know.
[Very hilarious how red and surprised his face turns when Kairi teases him about his mental flub in the face of bonding.]
Wait, that’s not…
[What he meant!! AAAA. They are out here baring it all, and he had the nerve to only say “um, right,” wow.
His eyes lower to their hands. He’s careful of the hurt one, but curls his hands against the sting so he can hold Sora’s like he’s holding Kairi. Their arms form a little star shape.
The weight of what is ahead of them here is suddenly light on his shoulders; it blows away with surprising ease. This happens a lot, doesn’t it? Being with Sora and Kairi and feeling that much stronger, that much stable, that much more confident.]
This is right for me, too.
[Kairi was right, he’s just stupid.]
It always has been… I was just scared I was too weak to protect it.
[there's a shrug following that, but the smile grows a little when he hears both of them.]
We're always stronger together, aren't we? I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but...I have you guys, so maybe that's all that matters. I'm not scared. [kairi is standing so she's too far away for him to do much more than hold hands, but he does try to pull her closer again. come back.]
...but what do you mean you were pretty sure I felt the same? [hey!!!]
[ she beams at riku when he says that, rocking on her heels again before she lets go of their hands to climb back on the bed between both of them this time. squeezing herself in and probably ruining sora and riku's handhold. she doesn't settle yet, sitting on her knees between both of them for some reason?
and then sora says that and she's giggling ]
It was just a hunch. You wear your heart on your sleeve, but Riku tries to act tough. [ then she's putting her arms around both of them and flopping down, hoping to pull them over via momentum and surprise despite weighing ten pounds. suckers! she's forcing you into cuddles! ]
[He says this, and then he turns his head away from them like he is trying to be tough (and also keep them from seeing any embarrassment on his face). Kairi was not wrong.
It's because he's looking away that Kairi can take him down without any kind of effort.] Wh--! [DID THEY JUST GET CLOTHESLINED? Good for them.
He lets out an oof of air when he hits the bed. However, he makes not a single attempt to get away.]
[she's allowed to ruin the handholding, it's okay. he shifts so kairi can squish between them, and that's probably his biggest mistake because he wants to agree with her, but suddenly she's knocking them both flat on their backs.]
Whoa! [down they go!! into these forced cuddles...wow...terrible...
...sora does nothing to get away and instead uses the opportunity to move a little closer.]
You could've just asked, you know. [she could not because her boys are complete idiots.]
[DON'T LOOK AT HIM. He continues to make a bit of a face, or at least... he tries to hold the really Done look he's attempting. But he ends up bursting into a bit of laughter anyway.
His friends... are so dumb...]
Are you trying to say something is wrong with my face?
[Why did they suddenly team up to bully him?! He hasn't even done anything wrong! He gives Kairi an extremely incredulous look, and then--well, he can't even turn away or anything since he's been clotheslined down, but his face turn get a bit red.
[ she turns to hide her face to muffle her laugh into the bed. oh my god. they're so dumb. they're so-- why does she even like them they're so dumb.
she's a little hysterically giggling at how immediately awkward they both are, because they're in a truck in a revolving death gas station and they all just held hands and said they want to be with each other forever, but the word "cute" is too much and they die. it's funny! it's stupid. she is so tired from multiple traumatic situations in very few days. ]
Don't worry, you're both cute. [ neither of them were worrying about that, and she's saying it through giggles anyway. it's fine. ]
[You ever see your typos later and wonder what the fuck?
Anyway, he is just down here wanting to die. As a stupid boy, it's his duty to wonder why in the world Kairi would ask Sora whether or not he looks cute smiling. He just doesn't understand. It's what happens when you're a bisexual disaster.]
I don't know... I think the two of you are the ones who are better with the whole "cute" thing.
goodbye to the disaster bi. sora's still trying to process literally all of this before he makes another face.]
Then what're we supposed to call you, hot? [it's said almost dryly and, like, very clearly not actually thinking about it but it's out there. there's your opinions folks.]
[ it's a good thing she's already muffling her laughter because oh my god, do these two even realize what they just said. she snorts, unladylike :/ damn i guess riku is right :/ before lifting herself up to turn around and lie on her back like the other two. ]
[Okay. NO NOW. No. KAIRI CAN'T JUST AGREE WITH SORA AND THEN FLOP OVER LIKE IT ISN'T ANYTHING!!!!
If he was a Ghibli character, his hair would definitely have fluffed out. The peaks of his face turn the color of salmon, and it's always more noticeable because he's somehow the palest person in the world despite being an islander.]
Kairi! [NOT HER TOO. A gremlin.] Why are we talking about this again....?
[riku your embarrassment!! sora kind of blinks like he's just cluing in to what was said, and then he's laughing which is even unfortunate.]
Kairi's fault! I had nothing to do with this. [but like. he's smirking because even if he's also a little embarrassed riku is moreso so that's an automatic win.]
[ sora laughing makes her giggle again softly, and she's still looking away towards the ceiling. it's after a pause that she says, guileless and fond; ]
I told you both. I want to be with you two. That's why.
[ theyre free to interpret it however, at this point. idiots. ]
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... Ever since we first left the islands, there's a lot of things we haven't gotten to say.
[ she thinks so, at least, even though she's tried to make it clear as much as she could. still, it became obvious that there's always something more to say. first when riku died (here, and it feels a little crazy that they're back in like nothing happened), and then when sora... again. ]
I know I'm not as strong as the two of you. [ she says it like it's a matter of fact, because she's not yet, and maybe never, but she wants to at least reach their ballpark. hence, aqua. but that's later. for now-- ] But... I want to be with you two, no matter what. Our fates keep being messed with, but I know that's what it's supposed to be. The three of us, together. That's all.
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You’re not that far behind, Kairi. [Since he thinks if he says anything about her being strong, or strong in her own way, she will think it’s patronizing. Platitudes.] It’s good we have your help.
[Please, your self esteem!!!]
Kairi’s right. We’re meant to be together. I guess… trying so hard to be together helps us realize how important it is to be together at all. I wish we didn’t have to struggle for it, but… because we do, I appreciate it more. Like now.
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[mostly because with aqua training her it is a very big possibility. but...the three of them together. it is what it's supposed to be, and he also can appreciate their time together because they've fought so hard for it. it's why he thinks about it again.]
You guys are too important to me to just give up. Waiting isn't always the answer, and if it's possible to be together, then that's how it should be. [kairi might find that familiar.] Our friend asked the Ea what they lived for and what gave their life meaning, and the answer was nothing. There was no meaning for them. I just couldn't understand that...but when I think of that question, I know the answer is both of you.
[words are still hard in this instance, but he'll just say what makes the most sense, really.]
If I can't be together with you guys, I don't think I want to be with anybody else at all. [because he gave up everything just to make sure they'd be safe. because his whole journey started just to find kairi again. because he continued his journey to bring riku home. because they are his strength and he knows he's better with them than he ever would be without them.
so. he only hopes they understand that, even if he doesn't verbalize it.]
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I don't want to be stronger than you two. That's not why I'm doing this. [ she's never been competing the way they have, so they entirely missed the point that she wants to be strong enough to be able to protect them in turn and not have them feel the need to get hurt for her sake. that's really all she cares about. ] It's because it's the same for me. I don't want to be with anyone else.
[ she kicks her legs again, not looking at either of them. words are hard indeed. ]
When we were kids... Everyone always acted like I'd have to choose between both of you. And sometimes... I worried about that too. [ she doesn't say why, but she thinks of those days before the island fell, how she'd felt riku change and pull away. sometimes she worried the distance was still there in a way it wasn't with her and sora, or with sora and riku. because it's sora, and sora's easy. but losing riku a week ago... she thinks it solidified something inside herself she hadn't realized needed solidity. she looks up at the roof of the truck ] I didn't want that. I've never wanted that.
[ she slips off the bed, restless, turning to face both of them with her hands on her hips ]
So... forget about hurt, or struggling, or whoever else for now. None of that was right, but this is. [ she grabs both of their hands. the non-stabby one for riku, you loser. ] Right?
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They really need to learn how to talk to girls. Their girl. He looks everywhere else except at her. Haha… And then sneaks a very quick glance at Sora.
It’s when she gets up that he finally can’t help but to look at her. He wants to say there wasn’t any choosing because clearly Sora was the appropriate goofball, but then he doesn’t want it to seem like he is purposefully ostracizing himself.]
Um…
[TRULY ONLY SAYS UM even though he lets her take his hand. He doesn’t feel embarrassed, or weird, or ashamed. It feels… normal.]
Right.
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um. hm. um is right, and he glances at riku in return before he just...sort of lets out a slight laugh.]
...the three of us. [HE WILL TEMPORARILY TAKE CONTROL OF THE BRAINCELL, HE GUESSES?] None of us should have to choose when I think...I feel the same way about both of you.
[congratulations on an iota of foresight, sora. and because riku's a fucking fool, he'll complete the chain? and grab his other hand but like very gently because there's a stab still that they really should fix.]
This is right. [...truly no idea where to go from there, but at least they got this far.]
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It's okay if it's not the same for you. [ a pause, and, because she knows it's TWO idiots, and maybe riku's in the same corner of stupidity as sora last year on this one: ] Or if you haven't thought about it before. But I wanted you to know.
[ and then, a tad sly towards sora; ]
I was pretty sure you were the same way, though.
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Wait, that’s not…
[What he meant!! AAAA. They are out here baring it all, and he had the nerve to only say “um, right,” wow.
His eyes lower to their hands. He’s careful of the hurt one, but curls his hands against the sting so he can hold Sora’s like he’s holding Kairi. Their arms form a little star shape.
The weight of what is ahead of them here is suddenly light on his shoulders; it blows away with surprising ease. This happens a lot, doesn’t it? Being with Sora and Kairi and feeling that much stronger, that much stable, that much more confident.]
This is right for me, too.
[Kairi was right, he’s just stupid.]
It always has been… I was just scared I was too weak to protect it.
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We're always stronger together, aren't we? I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but...I have you guys, so maybe that's all that matters. I'm not scared. [kairi is standing so she's too far away for him to do much more than hold hands, but he does try to pull her closer again. come back.]
...but what do you mean you were pretty sure I felt the same? [hey!!!]
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and then sora says that and she's giggling ]
It was just a hunch. You wear your heart on your sleeve, but Riku tries to act tough.
[ then she's putting her arms around both of them and flopping down, hoping to pull them over via momentum and surprise despite weighing ten pounds. suckers! she's forcing you into cuddles! ]
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[He says this, and then he turns his head away from them like he is trying to be tough (and also keep them from seeing any embarrassment on his face). Kairi was not wrong.
It's because he's looking away that Kairi can take him down without any kind of effort.] Wh--! [DID THEY JUST GET CLOTHESLINED? Good for them.
He lets out an oof of air when he hits the bed. However, he makes not a single attempt to get away.]
Kairi!
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Whoa! [down they go!! into these forced cuddles...wow...terrible...
...sora does nothing to get away and instead uses the opportunity to move a little closer.]
You could've just asked, you know. [she could not because her boys are complete idiots.]
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This was funnier. [ and they're both idiots who'd just get embarrassed. so this is easier! she looks at riku next ] Especially your face.
[ <3 ]
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[DON'T LOOK AT HIM. He continues to make a bit of a face, or at least... he tries to hold the really Done look he's attempting. But he ends up bursting into a bit of laughter anyway.
His friends... are so dumb...]
Are you trying to say something is wrong with my face?
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Hmmm...I think she's right. We can probably fix that though, can't we? [this is to kairi because it's once again bully riku and only riku hours.]
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[ :) bully both hours :) ]
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[Why did they suddenly team up to bully him?! He hasn't even done anything wrong! He gives Kairi an extremely incredulous look, and then--well, he can't even turn away or anything since he's been clotheslined down, but his face turn get a bit red.
THE SMILE RAN AWAY SO FAST.]
You two...
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I...guess? Why're you asking me? You'd probably be a better judge of that, Kairi. [but uh.] But it's always better when you're both smiling.
[never mind he doesn't want to bully anyone anymore goodbye.]
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she's a little hysterically giggling at how immediately awkward they both are, because they're in a truck in a revolving death gas station and they all just held hands and said they want to be with each other forever, but the word "cute" is too much and they die. it's funny! it's stupid. she is so tired from multiple traumatic situations in very few days. ]
Don't worry, you're both cute. [ neither of them were worrying about that, and she's saying it through giggles anyway. it's fine. ]
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Anyway, he is just down here wanting to die. As a stupid boy, it's his duty to wonder why in the world Kairi would ask Sora whether or not he looks cute smiling. He just doesn't understand. It's what happens when you're a bisexual disaster.]
I don't know... I think the two of you are the ones who are better with the whole "cute" thing.
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goodbye to the disaster bi. sora's still trying to process literally all of this before he makes another face.]
Then what're we supposed to call you, hot? [it's said almost dryly and, like, very clearly not actually thinking about it but it's out there. there's your opinions folks.]
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Mm, yeah. I think he is, too.
[ which he? which he indeed. :) both :) ]
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[Okay. NO NOW. No. KAIRI CAN'T JUST AGREE WITH SORA AND THEN FLOP OVER LIKE IT ISN'T ANYTHING!!!!
If he was a Ghibli character, his hair would definitely have fluffed out. The peaks of his face turn the color of salmon, and it's always more noticeable because he's somehow the palest person in the world despite being an islander.]
Kairi! [NOT HER TOO. A gremlin.] Why are we talking about this again....?
[Kairi started it.]
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Kairi's fault! I had nothing to do with this. [but like. he's smirking because even if he's also a little embarrassed riku is moreso so that's an automatic win.]
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I told you both. I want to be with you two. That's why.
[ theyre free to interpret it however, at this point. idiots. ]
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